Hey there!
This past week, I was off at a quilting retreat and a friend asked me why I haven't been blogging lately. "Is everything okay?" she asked. I didn't know how to reply. Everything is fine, I assured her. And it really is. I'm just.... well, I couldn't figure out how to explain why I've just not had much to say.
I've already alluded to the fact that my marriage of 20 years has ended. That's actually been a very positive thing overall, although it has been and continues to be strange and difficult and just weird. Some days I feel like I don't know who I am or what my life is any more. And some days I get a glimpse of the "me" that I haven't felt like in a long time, and I've missed.
I try sometimes to think of a good analogy for how I'm feeling these days. Maybe it's like wandering through the woods ... they're pretty and peaceful and I'm seeing all sorts of new things. But I lose the path from time to time, and some days it feels like I'm just hacking at a lot of branches and some days I need to just sit on a rock and rest.
Or perhaps it's like what I've been experiencing after getting new eyeglasses after wearing an old and scratched pair for a long time. Suddenly the world looks clear and I see things I didn't notice before and think "how did I tolerate that hazy view for so long?" And then other days all of that clarity gives me a headache.
At any rate, as soon as Wendy asked me about blogging I realized that I didn't want to stop. And not stopping meant, obviously, starting again.
So bear with me as I try to clear a new path for myself! Who knows where we'll go?
I understand Diane---I haven't been blogging on a regular basis either for almost a year. I do however miss seeing your watercolors---and your quilts ---
ReplyDeleteSometimes there is nothing blog-worthy to share. I know bloggers that post 2-3 even 4 times a day. Omg! ---blogging takes a lot of time, how do they do that? And their lives must certainly be more exciting than mine. LOL! I'm glad you are clearing a new path. Yes, who knows where it will go. Looking forward to seeing more of you in Blogland.
It's good to see you again in blogland!
ReplyDeleteI think it's fine to just sit and rest when you need to. (I've been doing that quite often these past months actually.)
I too miss seeing your water colors and other creations, and hearing about your travels. It's always a nice surprise to see your blog in my inbox, more so than those that clog it several times a day or week with little meaningful content.
ReplyDeleteThrilled to see you here again :D
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The journey inward is the only way to find out what truly matters....
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