Saturday, April 25, 2015

Starting Again


Hey there!

This past week, I was off at a quilting retreat and a friend asked me why I haven't been blogging lately.  "Is everything okay?" she asked. I didn't know how to reply.  Everything is fine, I assured her.  And it really is.  I'm just.... well, I couldn't figure out how to explain why I've just not had much to say.

I've already alluded to the fact that my marriage of 20 years has ended.  That's actually been a very positive thing overall, although it has been and continues to be strange and difficult and just weird.  Some days I feel like I don't know who I am or what my life is any more.  And some days I get a glimpse of the "me" that I haven't felt like in a long time, and I've missed.

I try sometimes to think of a good analogy for how I'm feeling these days.  Maybe it's like wandering through the woods ... they're pretty and peaceful and I'm seeing all sorts of new things.  But I lose the path from time to time, and some days it feels like I'm just hacking at a lot of branches and some days I need to just sit on a rock and rest.

Or perhaps it's like what I've been experiencing after getting new eyeglasses after wearing an old and scratched pair for a long time.  Suddenly the world looks clear and I see things I didn't notice before and think "how did I tolerate that hazy view for so long?"  And then other days all of that clarity gives me a headache. 

At any rate, as soon as Wendy asked me about blogging I realized that I didn't want to stop.  And not stopping meant, obviously, starting again.

So bear with me as I try to clear a new path for myself!  Who knows where we'll go?

5 comments :

  1. I understand Diane---I haven't been blogging on a regular basis either for almost a year. I do however miss seeing your watercolors---and your quilts ---
    Sometimes there is nothing blog-worthy to share. I know bloggers that post 2-3 even 4 times a day. Omg! ---blogging takes a lot of time, how do they do that? And their lives must certainly be more exciting than mine. LOL! I'm glad you are clearing a new path. Yes, who knows where it will go. Looking forward to seeing more of you in Blogland.

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  2. It's good to see you again in blogland!
    I think it's fine to just sit and rest when you need to. (I've been doing that quite often these past months actually.)

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  3. I too miss seeing your water colors and other creations, and hearing about your travels. It's always a nice surprise to see your blog in my inbox, more so than those that clog it several times a day or week with little meaningful content.

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  4. Thrilled to see you here again :D
    <3

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  5. The journey inward is the only way to find out what truly matters....

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